i think i have peanut butter in my eye. my hands are sticky with apple juice. what time is it?? i'm sweating. and shaking. and and tense.....
as i write this i'm coming out of a low. a low i haven't felt in a long time... i'm 42. but this didn't feel like a 42 i've had before. i woke up sweat puddled on my face and i could feel it about to drip down my back. must wake up i thought. i knew i was (am) low i just couldn't make myself wake up i don't know how long ago that was... i fell back asleep... woke up again... julie you're low. test. go get some juice. ok ok. this felt like a low to where i would need an assistant juice getter-er but then i had thoughts racing through my head about being independent and no i can do this! so then i decided that since i was thinking these strange random thoughts i did indeed not need assistance and went downstairs. open the cabinet get a large glass fill it to the brim with grape juice. then i also conclude i need an apple and some peanut butter. why not...
as i sat and drank my grape juice and slathered peanut butter over my apple (not really sure how i still have my fingers after cutting it... low and shaking...) i could literally feel my blood sugar rising...
The sweat stopped sweating. My hands were still shaking but returned to a steadier normal non-shaking state. My thoughts were still strange but less so than before. Oddly, I started thinking of titles and what I would write in this blog. Hm... maybe I need to go test again... yeah... I do...
Must go wash sticky low induded applepeanutbuttergrapejuice fingers.
happy thursday.
sorry if blog makes little sense... the title should be enough of a warning....
2 comments:
Jules, are you okay now? That was scary.
I'm tagging you. Check my last post & see what it is all about!
wow, that sounds scary. I hate those kind of lows when you're already out of it just by being low, but when you add on coming out of sleep, there's almost no hope for a clear thought. That used to be my worst nightmare-that I'd get low in the night and not wake up in the morning. thankfully I'm sensitive enough and do wake up when I'm low, but my host brother, Jose, does not. and that scares me.
I'm glad you kept all your fingers!
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